This week is going to be hellish

I finished my first line edits! They’re all done!!!! Now I wait for my next round of edits!!!

It’s always about waiting.

My book is being released September 3. I’m agonizing over this thing. It’s my FIRST trade published novel!!! I’m so anxious.

Now that I have that out-of-the-way at the beginning of the week…I get to prepare for tomorrow.

What is tomorrow? It’s my BIG doc appointment.

I get to be at Montefiore at 7:00 am for a brain and cervical spine MRI’s, then heading over the bridge to Presby for my Lp, then on up the elevators for my appointment. I’m nervous. I have no idea what to expect. I don’t know if I should hope something is found so it can be fixed. Or should I hope nothing is wrong up there and continue wondering why I’m feeling how I feel? I really don’t want another surgery. I don’t. But there is this little nagging voice in the back of my head saying that is going to be what is proposed.

I always look at things negatively. I guess if I look at it negatively and the results are negative then I don’t have my hopes up. Where as if I think negative and the results are positive…well yay!

Okay so it’s not the entire week that is going to suck. Just tomorrow and the days after depend on how tomorrow goes.

I am really hoping that my publishers will keep giving me good news this week to keep my spirits up.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow.